Sunday, May 1, 2011

Feeling Anxious

Friday morning was extremely difficult for me.  I frantically woke up a few times in the middle of the night later than what I had intended on to feed Reese.  This left me feeling very anxious and brought back a slew of feelings from the morning we lost Drew.  This is something I’ve been preparing for for several months, but it hit pretty hard.  I just could not stop crying.  When I held Reese, swaddled in her blanket, she reminded me so much of the last hour I spent with Drew before they took him to the funeral home.  He looked so peaceful in his blanket and it seemed as if he was still sleeping.  I sat in bed weeping, feeling vulnerable and holding her so tighly, not wanting to let go.  As we go home and get into a routine, and as Reese grows, this feeling of anxiety will lesson.  Please pray for peaceful nights for Dan and me. 

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